Judd's first photos...

ok so i know i have taken a ton of pictures of Judd but these are his the outfit his mom wanted pics of him taken in! He is just about too big to wear it so glad we got the pictures done! I thought taking pictures of a baby would be a lot easier...I was WRONG!!!! i think they are cute so here a few a few.... Im taking pictures of all the Meeks sunday so more pics soon....

she is such a great big sis

daddy and his boy

smiling big

Rylee and Judd

TOOO BUSY

I FEEL LIKE I STAY TO BUSY...IS THAT POSSIBLE? I LOVE TO BE ON THE GO AND DOING THINGS BUT I THINK I HAVE BECOME TO BUSY? I DO NOT SPEND THE QUALITY TIME I SHOULD ON MY KNEES WITH GOD...YES I PRAY BUT ITS A FIVE MIN PRAYER HERE OR BEFORE BED OR WHEN SOMEONE IS SICK OR REQUESTED PRAYER....THIS IS NOT THE PRAYER IM TALKING ABOUT! IM TALKING ABOUT PRAYER THAT IS LIFE CHANGING....TAKES YOU TO THE NEXT LEVEL OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST...NOT A EVERY ONCE IS AWHILE PRAYER EITHER...IM TALKING ABOUT DAILY PRAYER THAT HELPS US BECOME GOD CENTERED PEOPLE! YES I GO TO CHURCH, VISIT FRIENDS IN NEED, HELP THOSE WHO NEED IT, ATTEND CHURCH WHEN THE DOORS ARE OPEN, HELP WITH THE YOUTH, AND SO MUCH MORE BUT WHAT GOOD ARE THESE IF IM NOT CENTERED AROUND GOD...WHAT GOOD ARE THESE THINGS IF THEY ARE DISTRACTING ME FROM BEING CLOSER TO GOD. YES THESE THINGS ARE GREAT BUT IF MY PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD IS STRUGGLING THEN I NEED TO SLOW DOWN......TODAY I LISTENED TO CHRISTIAN FRIENDS SIT AND MAKE EXCUSES OF DIFFERENT DISTRACTIONS IN THEIR LIEFS...I HAVE LISTENED TO MANY OF THEM MAKE THE SAME EXCUSES NO MATTER WHAT QUESTION IS ASKED.....IM TIRED OF MAKING EXCUSES.....IM TIRED OF CHURCH CHAIR CHRISTIANS( ONES WHO NEVER MISS CHURCH BUT NEVER HAVE TOLD ANYONE ABOUT CHRIST)...IM TIRED OF FAKE PEOPLE....HOW CAN U ACT ONE WAY MON THROUGH SATURDAY AND BE HOLY ON SUNDAY? IM SORRY BUT WE ARE NOT WINNING PEOPLE TO CHRIST BY LIVING LIKE THIS.....WE HAVE TO GET ON OUR KNEES AND FIRST AND FOREMOST GET RIGHT WITH GOD...WHAT IS KEEPING YOU FROM ALL OF HIM TODAY? WE HAVE TO BE HONEST WITH OURSELVES AND SOMETIMES THAT IS HARD....I HAVE PERSONAL THINGS HOLDING ME BACK! I HAVE STAY SO BUSY THAT I MAKE TIME FOR EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE ELSE BUT GOD....BUT DONT GET ME WRONG THEY ARE GOOD THINGS AND SOME OF THEM EVEN UPLIFT GOD BUT I TRULY BELIEVE THAT THEY COULD BE EVEN BETTER IF I WOULD JUST GET ON MY KNEES AND LET HIM LEAD ME COMPLETELY! I HAVE SIN IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE TO GET RID OF BEFORE GOD CAN USE ME TO THE POWER HE WANTS TO. I HAVE HAVE THINGS I NEED TO TAKE TO THE CROSS AND LEAVE THERE....YES IM HUMAN, YES I WILL FALL SHORT DAILY BUT I CAN TAKE IT ALL TO HIM EACH DAY AND ONCE FORGIVEN ITS GONE...I DONT HAVE TO BEAT MYSELF UP OVER IT ONCE I HAVE LET HIM HAVE IT! IM GROWING EACH DAY AND REALIZING AND LEARNING SO MUCH! IM SO BLESSED TO HAVE A FORGIVING AND LOVING GOD. HE HAS NEVER LEFT ME OR BETRAYED ME BUT SO MANY TIMES I HAVE TURNED MY BACK ON HIM. THANK YOU LORD FOR ALL THAT YOU ARE IN MY LIFE. AS I TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND ALLOW YOU TO BEGIN TO MOLD ME INTO WHO YOU WOULD HAVE ME TO BE..... AS I STOP PUTTING MY LIFE AND MY CONCERNS BEFORE YOU AND PUT YOU FIRST SO THAT I MAY DO YOUR WILL AND NOT MINE.....I PRAY THAT AS I SLOW DOWN AND GET ON MY KNEES AND GROW CLOSER TO YOU THAT GREAT THINGS WILL HAPPEN AND YOU GOD WILL RECEIVE THE GLORY AND HONOR


TODAY WAS AN AWESOME DAY....GOD IS SO GOOD!!! I WAS TIRED AND NOT WANTING TO GO TO CHURCH BUT I MADE MYSELF....I ENJOYED THE SUNDAY SCHOOL LESSON AND GOD REALLY SPOKE TO ME....MORNING SERVICE WAS AWESOME AND WE HAD THE A CHILD GET SAVED (SHELLEY SMITH'S OLDEST DAUGHTER) AND GOD WAS MOVING....THEN TONITE WAS A SINGING GROUP AND GOD WAS MOVING STRONGLY...HE JUST PUT HIS ARMS AROUND ME AND TOOK IT ALL AWAY....GAVE ME PEACE AND COMFORT I NEEDED! AMEN.....

I PRAY THAT AS I CONTINUE TO WORK ON MY LIFE PERSONALLY AND SHARE MY HEART AND FEELINGS WITH YOU THAT YOU ALSO TAKE YOUR WALK WITH GOD TO THE NEXT LEVEL....I PRAY WE ALL BEGIN TO GROW AND FOLLOW HIS WILL .....WE LIVE IN A WORLD OF HURT AND FAILURE BECAUSE GOD IS MISSING IN SO MUCH OF OUR WORLD....SO LETS PUT GOD BACK IN IT.....TELL SOMEONE ABOUT HIM THIS WEEK...IF YOU DO LET ME KNOW HOW THAT GOES....I PRAY GOD SENDS SOMEONE IN MY PATH AND I WILL HAVE THE WORDS TO SAY TO THEM! WE DO ALL OF THIS SO GOD MAY RECEIVE ALL THE GLORY AND PRAISE

crawfish boil

After a busy day of getting things done for the wedding we had a family crawfish boil at the caldwells! We ate and ate and ate! It was soooooo GOOD! we enjoyed our visit and took some fun pictures! Things are going great and we are almost done decorating and have got a lot done! Good thing we started WED!!! Tomorrow we have a busy day!!! We are even getting our nails and toes done for the wedding! Rehearsal and Re WHOOO HOOO!!! More pictures coming soon....

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SPRING BREAK CONTINUES

I AM REALLY ENJOYING MY SPRING BREAK! IM SLEEPING IN AND SPENDING TIME WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND I DO NOT HAVE TO ATTEND SCHOOL ANY THIS WEEK! I HAVE DONE A LIL STUDYING JUST SO I WILL NOT GET BEHIND! I HAVE A BUSY WEEKEND PLANNED! BUT I AM VERY EXCITED TO SPEND IT WITH WITH MY SECOND FAMILY! STACEY CALDWELL IS GETTING MARRIED SATURDAY AND IM MORE THAN GLAD TO HELP IN ANY WAY THEY NEED ME! STACEY WILL BE A BEAUTIFUL BRIDE AND I CANT WAIT TO POST PICTURES OF HER! I AM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO SATURDAY! WEDNESDAY WE WILL START DECORATING THE CLUB FOR HER RECEPTION! ITS AN OUTSIDE WEDDING SO I AM PRAYING IT DOES NOT RAIN SATURDAY! ILL TAKE PICTURES ALL WEEK AND ILL HAVE MY CAMERA WITH ME SATURDAY TOO!

THIS WEEK IM ALSO DOING EASTER PICTURES OF RYLEE AND JUDD AND MAYBE ZOE IF I CAN TALK LAURA INTO COMING TO MONTICELLO! I ALSO PLAN ON DOING FAMILY PICTURES OF THE MEEKS! JUDD WENT TO HIS FIRST DR APPT AND HAD A GREAT REPORT!

WELL ILL KEEP YALL UPDATED .....

Family Night

I started my spring break by spending time with my family! We are all usually so busy that we only get to do this on Holidays! Mom, Josh, and I decided to go to lunch at Ameca and it was pretty good but not as good as it usually is! Then Josh and I threw the softball around and Im feeling that today! Josh left to go pick up dad in Dumas and mom and i sat outside and enjoyed the sunshine! Then when dad and Josh got home we all visited and Josh and threw the ball some more! ( now i know why im hurting) Then my brother gets to cooking us some good steaks and we eat and eat and eat! We all ate way to much! Then it was family poker time! We all really just enjoy our time together and we love cards! We played till around 2 am this morning! Poor dad he isnt on Spring Break! I really enjoy family time so i really am glad we got to spend time as a family yesterday! I have an awesome family and I love all the great memories i have with them! I try to let them all know how much the mean to me daily! Well i have a busy week planned and so im sure ill have pictures and things to post soon!!

GODS WILL

I really cant explain how i felt yesterday... my mind was so full of thoughts and I was tired! I know i wasnt myself but I was really ok! Several people kept asking what was wrong or telling me that they would listen if i needed to talk. There was nothing i could say or talk about to anyone except God. I am seeking HIS PERFECT WILL for my LIFE and and NOT HIS PERMISSIVE WILL

PERFECT:
complete in all respects; without defect or omission; sound; flawless
in a condition of complete excellence, as in skill or quantity; faultless; most excellent; sometimes used comparatively “to create a more perfect union”
completely correct or accurate; exact; precise a perfect copy
without reserve or qualification; pure; utter; sheer; absolute a perfect fool, perfect stranger

PERMISSIVE:
giving permission; that permits
allowing freedom; esp., tolerant of behavior or practices disapproved of by others; indulgent; lenient
Archaic allowable and at one's option

God allows us to make our own choices in life! He is there to show us the way but so many times we do it our way without ever asking God to show us His will for our life! It does not matter how simple or complicated the decision is He wants to guide us through it! I have been just doing what ever it takes to get by in His permissive Will but He has showed me that I need to do more. I need to get out of my comfort Zone, and allow Him to guide me completely in all areas of my life! So Im at the point where i realized i have been missing out on so much in life because i have been in His permissive will! So im taking my relationship with Christ to a new level! I am tired of only giving him enough to get by so I am allowing him to have ALL of me and not PART of me!!!

This is where im at in my life: God is showing me things and im growing closer to Him everyday! My mind was full of things that I knew i needed to do and things I knew I had to let God have so I could be in His perfect Will! Yes im sure some will judge me, im sure Ill fail a few times, Im sure it will be hard, I know ill be out of my comfort zone, but I have to DO WHAT GOD HAS CALLED ME TO DO! or ill be miserable, ill always have that desire he has put in my heart! So Im now taking the next step to get out of his permissive will for my life and into his perfect will for my life! He allows us to be in His permissive will but we are missing so many of his blessings so why not go to the next level and seek his perfect will!

I am not ready at this time to share this next step in my journey but I know God is getting ready to use me and Im getting prepared to step out of my comfort zone and do what God has called me to do! I ask that my readers lift me up in PRAYER because the devil will always try to fight us when we begin to do great things for God!

Saturday of Spring Break trip with the UTH

We had a great trip!!! Party Time Pizza was awesome! We got there around noon and left around 6! we could have stayed a lil longer but it was time to head home! We rocked climed, raced go karts, played lazer tag, played black lite put put (mostly took pics) and played games! It was lots of fun! We could eat pizza buffett and drink all the drinks we wanted so that was cool! It made it nice not having to pay for food and drinks all day.... we got a package where we got all the food and drinks, unlimited games and 6 attractions! so it was great and i will be taking them back for a day trip this summer!! I was very proud of the UTH and they pre! They were really good and i am looking forward to the next trip with them!

FRIDAY NIGHT WITH THE UTH

We had an awesome Friday night! Everyone arrived on time at the Church ( i was shocked) and Bro Larry prayed with us and off we were! Our first stop was Duck In and Go and some of the kids chose to buy cell phone covers and used most of their money? They will learn that when they have a set amount of money they cant spend it on stuff or junk!!! We arrived at our Hotel which is really nice! Everyone spent a few mins ok an hour getting ready! yes even the boys! then off to TGIFRIDAYS we went! The food was good...shrimp and chicken was everyones choices but Cole and Aaron and they got steaks and ribs! LOL Then we were off to Cold Stone Creamery! IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD!!! Then back to the HOTEL for some swimming! We had a blast in the pool! Then we all came up to the guys room for a devotion by Aaron! After coming back down to our room we talked, giggled, and went to bed! After the lights were out I heard LOTS OF GIGGLES!!! Not sure if i fell asleep first or the giggles stopped!!!

UTH spring break trip

Tomorrow after school Aaron and I are taking the UTH to LR for the weekend! Friday we will be going out to eat! After dinner we are going to stone cold creamary! Im so excited about the ice cream! Then back to the HOTEL for swimming and devotion! Then saturday we are gettin up and heading to PartyTime Pizza all day! That will include ROCKCLIMING, GO KARTS, BUMPER CARS, MINI GOLF, AND LAZERTAG, PLUS MINI BOWLING AND ARCADE GAMES!!! im really excited and looking forward to this trip!

PLEASE PRAY FOR AARON AND I! AND PRAY FOR THE SAFETY TO AND FROM LR! I HAVE ENCOURAGED THE KIDDOS TO SHAIR THEIR FAITH WITH SOMEONE SATURDAY! SO PRAY GOD OPENS THE DOOR FOR THAT TO HAPPEN!

my testimony

here is some of my testiomony


I remember as a kid growing up in Church... My parents didnt give me an option if i was going or not! I knew all the Bible Stories, i sang in the choir, and went to camps and mission trips! I enjoyed being a member of the childrens program and then Youth! I grew up in a Southern Baptist Church. I was at Siloam Springs when I asked God to come into my heart! I was with Tom McCone and I still remember it to this day. After we talked and prayed together I called my parents! They are were really excited! I grew up under Bro Richard Wade and his wife Bennie Carol Wade ( she was childrens and he was youth)! He planted a seed in me and taught me so much and much of it I use today in my personal life! He knew how to have a good time but when it was time to get serious we knew to get serious!

I had everything.... i was popular in school, had lots of friends, a great athlete, smart, had money, new cars, new clothes, and what ever i wanted i could have just about. But something was missing in my life.... it was a relationship with Christ! The summer before my senior i was invited to First Assembly of God to hear some of my friends sing in the All State Choir! I didnt want to go but I did. That was a turning point in my life... I soon was active and what was missing in my life was no longer missing! God was a big part of my life and who i was! I helped start a Bible Club at school even! It was hard making a stand for Christ when I was in High School! My relationship with Christ continued to Grow and Grow. I was praying daily adn i was studying God's word and I had a true relationship with Christ.....

Soon i was off to College at UAM and i started dating Ben (UAM Football player) he came to church a few times but after missing a few times I started to miss a few times.... the before i knew it worldly things became more important than my relationship with God! I soon was not attending church at all...

A few years go by and once again something was missing in my life! Several people kept telling me i needed to meet Jamie so eventually I did and she invited me to Immanuel and most the people at Immanuel were members of the church i grew up in! Soon I was active and became so busy doing in church i didnt have time for a PERSONAL relationship with God... I was easy dis tractable but soon realized i needed to stop being fake and get right with God. Several months go by and i started working with the youth. We took a mission trip to Dallas and worked in a Homeless shelter. It was an eye opening experience feeding these people who had nothing but were so loving and wanted to give to us even though they had nothing! i begin to personally re evaluate my life. I realized how greedy and selfish i really was! I begin to change things in my life and few months lator felt the call of missions on my life! This scared me and I begin to run from this....

I got married and divorced within a few months of each other, i was partying, i hated life and myself...I was miserable and felt like a failure for the first time in my life! I didnt know where i was going in life but i soon realized and felt that i was going to HELL! So i decided it was time to get back in Church and make sure i got stable in a relationship with God..... well months lator and finally deciding i was tired of playing church i am where I know im suppose to be ! I know Church does not save you and enter you into Heaven... so many people are very faithful to church but do not personally know Christ as their lord and savior. I think that Church is their to lift you up, allow you to refresh your relationship, teach you, help you learn and hear God's word....so many go to church for the wrong reasons.....I know a lot of people who have been hurt in church but we have to realize is that they are humans and are not perfect...we should not go to church for people to speak to us, or for what they can do for us... we go to church because that is where God wants us to be and we are able to join together with other christians and grow in his word and worship God together!


Right now im very active with working with the youth! God is working in my life daily and I know God has great things in store me and my life! I am waiting on doors to be open and a peace from God to know the direction in life im headed! I am open to whatever God would have for me! I know that what is important is i stand strong NO MATTER what comes against me... He has a calling on my life and the devil knows the closer and strong in Christ i become that GREAT and MIGHTY things for GOD are going to happen! that is why he attacks me so strongly in my weakess areas!

I know im not perfect and never will be but im trying daily to be the person God would have me to be!

I shared this with you to see that im not perfect and that God has loved me unconditionally through out my life. Its a relationship HE never gives up on no matter what we decide to do... but He gave us HIS everything ( HIS ONE AND ONLY SON) can we just not give him some of us.... just say here I am Lord Use me so you may receive the Glory and Honor! Here i am....
but when we say that we have to mean it and be open to whatever God calls us to do!

I know there seems to be a habit of allowing distractions in my life to pull me out of church and away from God... but what i realize now is that i was not grounded and strong in my walk with God to notice that the devil was pulling me away. I didnt like to be luke warm..... i wanted to be hot or cold... I didnt want to play church or play God..... i was real...i wasnt going to drink and party all weekend and show up at church on sundays with a hangover! i wasnt going to act all holy on sunday and then get to work and be someone different! I am trying daily to grow personally in my relationship and continue to grow in the word and in my prayer life so that when the devil does attack I can stand strong!

Please pray for me that God continues to use me and my life and that I dont get distracted!

I know it looks like im a wishy washy Christian....but i have learned from my mistakes and realized that i have to STAND STRONG in my relationship with Christ even when the world seems to come against me. I cant let the devil distract me with my weaknesses....Im learning to be rooted in His word and spending more time in Prayer daily and now that im doing that I can see where the devil is attacking and I can easly stand strong against him.... so if there is anything i want u to realize from this post it is that I have failed over and over again but God was there to pick me up and love me unconditionally! He didnt throw my mistakes in my past! He said Ashlee you are forgiven and helped me get to where i was suppose to be in life! Praise God he is a forgiving and loving God... where would i be without HIs Grace and Mercy?!?!?!

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

JUDD is home

they are glad to be home! my 2nd fam...

big sis is excited to have lil bro home finally

mom and dad say lets go

he is ready to go see his big sis

look at the blond hair

Judd ready to go home

mom and dad with lil man

Judd

me and Judd


Judd is home... The family is doing good! It will take a lil bit of time to adjust to things but they are doing good! Rylee is a very helpful big sister! Mom needs a few extra hours in the day to sleep! LOL not sure she will get that any time soon! Im going over this week to do a photo shoot of lil man so be looking for some good pics! Got to do Easter Pics sooon!!!

your true character is who you are in the dark

YOUR TRUE CHARACTER IS WHO YOU ARE IN THE DARK!!

What is character....
The inward motivation to do what is right
Who you are, even when no one is watching
The key to true success in every area of life

Alertness Attentiveness Availability Benevolence Boldness Cautiousness Compassion Contentment Creativity Decisiveness Deference Dependability Determination
Diligence Discernment Discretion Endurance Enthusiasm Faith Flexibility Forgiveness Generosity Gentleness Gratefulness Honor Hospitality
Humility Initiative Joyfulness Justice Loyalty Meekness Obedience Orderliness Patience Persuasiveness Punctuality Resourcefulness Responsibility
Security Self-Control Sensitivity Sincerity Thoroughness Thriftiness Tolerance Truthfulness Virtue Wisdom

These are a few qualities that make our character!

Sometimes in our christian walk we are someone where different at church then we are other times in our life! We claim to be a christian but we dont live it when no one is watching or we dont live it when we arent with other christians! Why cant we live for God 24/7????? God gave us HIS everything....HIS ONE AND ONLY SON to die for us and we are saved by his blood! After God has given us his everything we cant give him just a little bit of our life, our time, our hearts! I dont know who we are fooling but God knows and sees everything so we are not hiding anything from him! So we should not be fake Christians or have Fake Character! We should do our best EACH DAY to live a life for HIM and one that is uplifting to HIM!!!

what is a friend

I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY ITS WHEN YOU NEED THEM THE MOST IS THE TIME YOU TRULY FIND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE?!?!?!!? I HAVE SOME GREAT FRIENDS AND I DO NOT KNOW WHERE I WOULD BE WITH OUT A FEW OF THEM BUT AS I LOOK AT SOME OF THEM I WOULD BE ALL ALONE AND HURT IF I DEPENDED ON SOME OF THEM! I DO MY BEST TO BE A GOOD FRIEND TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS. I HAVE MY FAULTS BUT I TRY TO BE THERE FOR THEM AND SUPPORT THEM AND SHOW MY LOVE! I WILL DO AND GIVE WITHOUT EXPECTING IN RETURN. ILL BE THERE TO VENT TO , CRY ON , YELL AT, LEAN ON, AND TAKE CARE OF, AND I WILL REALLY DO JUST ABOUT ANYTHING FOR THOSE I CALL MY FRIENDS! SO IT REALLY HURTS ME WHEN I GET INTO A TIME WHERE I NEED THAT IN RETURN AND IT DOESNT SEEM TO THE BE THERE! SO AS I TAKE A DEEP LOOK INTO THE ONES I CALL MY FRIENDS I HAVE REALIZED THAT SOME ARE NOT TRUE FRIENDS THEY ARE JUST PEOPLE I KNOW AND SEE OFTEN AND OTHERS ARE FRIENDS! ITS FUNNY HOW SOME PEOPLE I WOULDNT HAVE REALLY CONSIDERED FRIENDS ARE THERE FOR ME MORE THAN THE ONES I THOUGHT WERE MY FRIENDS AND EVEN BEST FRIENDS! SO MAYBE I NEED TO CHANGE THE WAY I SEE A FEW OF THEM....

NO IM NOT SAYING IM FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE JUST TO SEE WHAT THEY CAN DO FOR ME BUT FRIENDSHIP IS A RELATIONSHIP THAT BOTH SHOULD GIVE 100% AND NOT TAKE 100%! IF YOU ARE READING THIS AND WONDERING IF IM TALKING ABOUT YOU THEN YOU MIGHT BE RIGHT OR YOU WOULD NOT BE THINKING THAT! WHO KNOWS.... I JUST HOPE YOU ARE A TRUE FRIEND AND NOT A FAKE ONE

JUST REMEMBER THAT SOMETIMES ITS JUST A SIMPLE HUG, TEXT, CALL, EMAIL, SMILE, OR VISIT! TAKE TIME TO LET THOSE YOU LOVE KNOW YOU LOVE THEM AND CARE ABOUT YOUR FRIENDSHIP!

I HAVE SEEN FIRST HAND OVER THE PAST FEW WEEKS "TRUE" FRIENDSHIP AND "FAKE" FRIENDSHIP!

******I HAVE TO SAY I WAS BLESSED WITH SOME GREAT FRIENDS******

are you going through the motions

busy busy busy

WOW my life has been so busy here lately!!! Let me catch yall up on a few things:

Friday and Saturday night our church hosted a speaker on praying for the loss! It was amazing and he did a really good job teaching us things that would help us! I really think a lot of his "ways" could be applied to our personal relationship with God! I will post more on this lator!

Saturday night after Jeff and I left church Lexy decided she needed to go to ElDorado...so at midnight we headed out.... by 1:53 baby Judd was here! He had to be put on a vent because he was breathing to hard and fast! Monday i went to school and then back to ElDorado! Tues i kept rylee and then we went to ElDorado to visit her mom and i got to see Judd ! Judd is doing good and is not on vent or cpap! Just nasal cannula and 50 % oxygen! He is jaundice so he will be tanning today! LOL Rylee is really having a hard time adjusting to all of this change...her mom not being at home to take care of her....being a big sister...so please pray for her! Lexy is doing good...some swelling and she is tired! So pray for all of the Meeks Crew!!!

its been crazy but i have enjoyed it and would not have it any other way! I love them and they are like my family no they are my family just not blood!!!

School is going good...just keeps me busy and studying all of the time!

Youth is going really good. We are getting ready to do the Live Crucifixion and so we are working on that! Im so proud of this group....they are young but are open to allowing God use them in a mighty way. They have done so well with being active on the drama team!

Im very tired and doesnt look like things are goin to slow down anytime soon...so im praying for God to refresh me daily...give me strength to keep on going! I also pray that i dont become to busy for God! so far things are going good but i want to keep it that way!!!

Got so much on my mind so be looking for some heart post!!!

Judd is here...

gigi putting make up on mommy

checking things out

daddy and mommy

here comes Judd

PUSH

jeff helping out

lil man

showing him to mommy

Judd's Proud Parents

Judd is here!!! March 8, 2009 6 lbs 10 1/2 oz and 19 1/2 in long! He was such a cute baby and I felt very special Lexy asked the nurse how many people she could have and she said 2 and lexy said well i want 3 peaple! So i was able to stay! It was such and awesome experiance I even had a few tears! it was really an easy process! and Dr. Booker was awesome!

After mommy held him they took him to NICU...he had to be put on a vent but seems to be doing very good at the momen! please continue to pray He gets healthy and they are able to come home soon!

Rylee's Spring Pictures

I spent the Friday afternoon taking pictures of Rylee! Im sure the next pictures of Rylee will be with her new little brother! Her grandmother gave her a few spring outfits and they made some really cute pictures!!

COME JOIN US

PRAYING FOR THE LOSS BY LEE E THOMAS ! THIS IS AN AWESOME BOOK OUR PRAYER GROUP IS READING RIGHT NOW AND LEE E THOMAS THE AUTHOR IS COMING TO SPEAK AT IMMANUEL THIS WEEKEND FRIDAY AND SATURDAY NIGHT SO COME CHECK IT OUT!!! THE BOOK IS AWESOME AND REALLY SHOWED ME A NEW OUTLOOK ON HOW AND WHY WE PRAY FOR THE LOSS!!! SO TELL YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND COME TO IMMANUEL THIS WEEKEND!!!

I have been set free!!!

Tonight i was just enjoying an evening at home....

I was just thinking and relaxing and then i felt God showing me a direction for Wednesday Nights Uth service! We are working on sunday nights preparing for the Live Crucifixion and I want to show them parts of the passion of Christ Movie! I knew that i needed to talk to them but God showed me it was time to give my Testimony to them...

I begin to get nervous....was i prepared to do this....why all of the sudden give them my life story...why was it even important...nothing in my life going to help change their life...God begin to show me some of the things in my past could help with their situations today....

so i begin to talk to God..... I dont know if you have ever had one of these moments where you are on your face...tears falling and you dont even notice...no words but Gods Presence is so strong you can barely breath....and then i gave my all to God... i realized i wasnt giving Him my all....every bit of it....there were things and past hurts i was holding on to.... I realized so much tonight about my personal walk with God!

LET ME SHARE SOME OF THE THINGS ON MY HEART!!!

i dont ever want to come to the place where i am satisfied with my relationship with God

I dont want to judge myself to other Christians for each of us are different

i dont want to spend another wasted moment living for things or people in this world

i want to share my testimony share my heart not hold it in anymore

i will not be ashamed of falling and getting back up because im not perfect

i will not let the devil WIN

i will begin to receive all of the blessings God has for me and my life

As i type this and if you have made it this far.... i ask and pray that you stop for a moment and look at your relationship with God... Are you giving God 100 % today....Do you know Him as your personal Lord and Savior? What is missing....is it the Relationship....its so easy for us to get busy and not make God a priority in our life Im guilty of this myself but realize that i have wasted to much time on this world and the false hopes and broken promises it offers me. I am taking a stand stronger then the one i already made back in Sept... Im taking my relationship to another level...instead of giving God my free time im going to strive to give Him 100%!

What does this mean..... Im praying God's will be done in my life....Im open to what ever He has planned for me! and not just whats convenient at the moment! I do not know what journey i will go down next...but I do know that God is there guiding me and leading me and preparing me for Great things in Life! I know that im in a figuring it all out, learning daily, and accepting im different now! I know i will make mistakes but i know from those mistakes i will learn and be able to use in my testimony to help change someones life one day! I have realized the importance of a honest relationship with God... No more playing and broken promises to God. I now see that i was only giving him a lil bit of me and He was only showing me a lil of what He has prepared for me to have! WOW to know that He has a Perfect Will and as i seek that He will show me !

My testimony is who i am and what my journey has been like so far....in a post this week i plan on sharing some of that with you guys....its very personal to me and not something i want to display for pride or glory but that someone who reads it will see the Great things God has done....see the life and journey i have lived for 28 years and see That God loves and forgives unconditionally and can do the same in each of your life's if you allow him!

AGE, COLOR, LIFESTYLE, AND YOUR PAST DOES NOT MATTER... I PRAY THAT YOU LOOK CLOSELY AT YOUR LIFE....WHAT IS MISSING....WHAT IS HOLDING YOU BACK FROM RECEIVING ALL OF GOD....IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU HAVE BEEN TO EVERY CHURCH SERVICE, EVERY RIVI VAL, VBS, OR SUNDAY SCHOOL CLASS IF YOU DO NOT HAVE A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP ALL OF THAT IS POINTLESS!!!! DON'T WAIT ANOTHER MINUTE....HE DOESN'T CARE WHAT SIN IS IN YOUR LIFE HE LOVES YOU AND IS THERE WAITING TO FORGIVE YOU OF IT ALL AND NEVER BRING IT UP AGAIN!!!